I sit here wondering how life is going to be next year. There's a new school, with all new people, I'm not sure how I'm going to do. This year, everyone changed. There are a lot of people that now have fake personalities, and talk about me behind my back, just like they do to everyone else. It hurts, cause I was best friends with all these people last year. I don't know what's going to happen next year, but I sure hope things get better. I've tried hurting myself a couple of times, but luckily I have some good friends who stopped me, and I'm not very good coping with pain. Then there's dance..I'm a competition dancer. But, it's not as great as it sounds. A lot of the dancers don't like me, it's my first year as a competitive dancer, I'm sorry I'm not perfect. There's a pool party today, so I better get ready for that. I'm so sick of babysitting my sister everyday of my summer, and it's only the first week. Lovely.
School's over D:
me and Mei still don't know if we're going to the ayabie concert this weekend - or what we're doing next weekend. lol
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I had an MRI of my knee this morning in an attempt to diagnose what has been wrong with it ever since it buckled on me while I was in pursuit of my son a month ago.� Being claustrophobic, it was a less than pleasurable 40 minutes, and I can only hope that it does indeed reveal something is wrong with my knee.
Of course, I do not like the prospect of needing any surgery to repair what damage I may have caused, especially with the looming visit to the orthopedic surgeon about my hips.
All of these leg problems before our approaching trips to Chicago in July and Walt Disney World in September could not have come at a worse moment.� The worst that could come to pass is that I may require a wheelchair to get around on both vacations, and at my age, I do not like this idea very much.� It certainly does not sit well with my ego, who still believes me to be around the young and tender age of 20 (and in reasonably good health).
Alas, all that I can do now is wait and see.
Des Moines flooded & Tim Russert died.� Weird start.
8:20 Jess wants diagrams/graphs of the main resources of the linux systems that I collected during the IWS perf test.� I didn't do them, I just watched in real-time.� Didn't see any issues, so I didn't graph.� Guess I can do that sometime next week?� Who the hell has time to graph data that's going to be flat?
8:30 - Jerry wants the BTI info.
- Talked to Ratface about the BTi stuff I need to email to Ashy.� Talked with Mr. T. about it a little and agreed we're going to house it with pff.� at least the prod part.� I don't know what the deal is exactly so I just took the configs for the pff boxes and sent them to ashy.� Mr. T. said something about the prod sharing on sparta but the dev and qa not being on carson and wabasha.� buying new hardware for them?� That makes no sense.� I don't need new hardware.� Even if they aren't in core network there's plenty of excess capacity elsewhere.
- Left a couple of messages for Jerry regarding this BTI stuff.� No call back.� Ended up just going with what I got from Ratface & Mr. T.�
-- Sent this off around 3:30, she wanted it by 2, but no such luck. :(� She seemed to think it was excellent though so?� ok!
Mr. T. is out for the rest of the day.� Might be w@h early next week.
�9-- sper-dooge says to call K. rogers at NW if we need anything asafp and can't get a response from anone else.
-- Talked with Slick about the meeting we had scheduled for today.� Margie and Hooper had to bail.� Nobody else was interested.� Fuck it, he's going to reschedule.� This will give me more time to mess with the IWS LM stuff that's fucko. and other things like moving anhinga and blackbird over to sparta etc.
11ish - 1ish Some vague fumble-fucking around with Drew about something that won't run properly on the thyme LM servers.� Can't get access to page on specific port using localhost 127.0.0.1, I asked "did you just try the word 'localhost' with the port?", he tries it and it works.� I abandon my search for the proper port in /etc/system or by doing tcpdump.� He swears it was working but my tcpdump said it wasn't.� I dunno.� Fuck it.� He's happy, I'm happy.� Stop fucking calling me with silly shit!
12:45 Ramen Noodles from NW hooks me up with some other folk.
3ish - Got the stuff for Jerry together and sent off, everybody is happy so far.
Calling it a day.� happy friday.
I am such an emotional wreck. I have fallen for this guy and this guy doesn't know that I exist as a member of the female gender. I�long to have his arms wrapped around me, or to nuzzle my cheeks in his chest. Geez! At forty, I act like a teenager before this guy
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